He Passed Me By........

My world has become a nightmare and I couldn't do anything to stop it. My best friend is not recognizeabe anymore. There is no love, there is no touch. our relationship is as parched as the driest desert. He looks right at me but doesn't see me. He is unmoved by my tears. I have cried an ocean over him and he looks right past it. I know him, I still see him... I feel his every thought, He fights the raw emotion, he cries but it's not over me, How devastating is that.... How hurtful can this get? His anger comes like a burst of a flame, his disgust written all over his face. he wants control but has lost it. He wants respect but I have none.

I have had no choice but to move forward. I still automatically think the best and then I am severly dispointed when there is no "best" or good to be found. There has been so many opportunities where something should have been said, But nothing comes out of that heart. It is not mine anymore. Why am I left hurting. I am pure, untouched I was happy, willing to meet life head on. instead I was cast aside, like my heart was nothing, There has been no real repentance, there as been nothing true.

Will it hurt forever, will I every know why? will I ever recognize him again. Will I ever silence my cry? All I really know is......

He really passed me by.